“I will cling to the old rugged cross, and exchange it someday for a crown.”
This line from the old hymn has been floating around in my head a good bit over the past couple of days.
The cross, an ancient symbol of sin and death and treachery, is now a symbol of righteousness, life, and citizenship.
For many years, the cross was alluring to me, but it resided in the land of knowledge. I was afraid of it, really. I think it was perhaps a call to look at things I didn’t want to look at. Many doors in my “inner parts” (Psalm 51:6) were closed. I think I was afraid of being myself, which is one thing the cross does; restore us to the person God created. This fear was rooted in childhood, where it was not ok to be myself.
In 2014, I hit a bottom. I will say that repentance happened to me. (Along with mental and physical healing). The cross went from being a scary symbol of my own sin and death to a symbol of righteousness and rest. Instead of now only making me tremble, it is a fountain of righteousness, life and citizenship.
Righteousness: It is more sure than the setting sun, more solid than gold, more constant than rythymns and time. We are clothed in this for all time. It doesn’t change.
Life: All those scary dark places I mentioned above? Over time they have been melted, settled, and taken. They are now permanently resting on the broad shoulders of the king, absorbed into the Light.
Citizenship: This one gets me everyday. I literally feel like I have won the lottery. I can’t believe I’m in the family.
The horror and deepest darkness of sin and death have been swallowed by Christ. May rejoicing and praise never be far from my lips.